I´m through the ditch. I´ve completed the circle. I´ve created balance. I´ve achieved tranquility and peace. Thank you to everyone even slightly involved :D even just offering your help was a step in my ladder. I cannot properly explain with words how wonderful it feels to let go of all that hate and anger. To channel it towards something worthwhile and decent :P Now I have my foundation for which to build myself upon, everything is ready except maybe a car, anyone got one of those lying around? That´s my second to last itam on my list, last one is edumacation which I´ll be applying for this fall ^_^
hopefully these last pieces will come my way, no. Strike that. I will hunt down these last two pieces as if my life depended on it because in a way, my life as *me* really does. I know what I want to achieve, I know what I wish to be, and I know many ways to get there. in the words of a wise man: "It has to start someplace, it has to start sometime. What better place than here, what better time than now?"

Yours once again in sincerity, Gísli Þór Þorsteinsson.

Thanks to an awesome person who´s just *MADE* of cake, I have a place to put up my bed and sleep in it for a little while :D it´s progress so I´m satisfied, now just for Krissi to finish his drama with dentistry and insurance and we´ll get ourselves a crib ^_^

This just goes to prove: when the world gives you lemons you FIND A NEW GOD! >:D

Anyway, to the awesome person: Thank you, you have largely saved my remaining sanity and earned my gratitude for a good looooong while. Ask any favour and it shall be done :P

On it, first up dentist, followed by *ANY* house-get, and then arrangements to move.

I´m tired and I think I may be getting paranoid, I get the feeling most people are pissed at me for no good reason :S I need to sleep in a bed this week.

single.

I am currently deciding whether or not I´ll be single this summer, many events have transpired to bring this decision to it´s making, many UNPLEASANT THINGS. Those of you who wish to cast judgement upon me for reactions? Have it your way, go ahead, I don´t really want to associate with anyone with such callous intent. This is perhaps the toughest decision I´ve had to make in just over a year, and the last one spurred a very, very long month afterwards.
Yes I speak of my last breakup, I doubt anyone will really get "why" I did that, but I know in my heart of hearts I did what was best for my partner, not for me. That kinda fucked me up for a long while. Now, I´m at the same brink doing the same FUCKING thing, and I´m pretty sure this time around will be uglier if it goes the same way. If things go well, I´ll be sunflowers and butterflies for the next months, if not, I might go on a teensy little binge to clear my systems before rebooting *everything*.

I don´t ask any of you to agree with me or approve what I do or how I do it. I act as I believe I should, in the interest of those I love. I want my friends, my loved ones to have what is best in life, if that something is me: I´m aaaaall for it. But when it ceases to be me? When I am an obstacle rather than a stepping stone? I have to make a decision.

Anyway, to my friends, I love you, I´ll do anything for you, but in the coming days? Your help would be appreciated maybe... guess it´s time I found out if some of these street of mine are two-way streets or if it´s all just a one-way street fooling me along for the ride.

So as to leave us with something lighter: according to someone I believe, "In the darkest hour? Hope. Springs *eternal*. Take from that what you wish

subject doesn´t feel happy.
Treatment?

I personally give my vote to ROBOT HEAVEN!

http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/videolinks/thatguywiththeglasses/nostalgia-critic/8875-tf2

(can´t link video, gayness)

Hope springs eternal. It always starts out small, like this time my dentist was on a hot streak, in his great mood he did my Root canal for 10.000 instead of 50.000 O_o

I kno rite!? Next I checked Mbl.is/leiga, and voilá two awesome sauce apartments for rent at a proper price... of course contacting the owners is proving to be tricky, but I remain optimistic like I do when things go my way >:D

People, the times they are a changing, and they´re changing for *ME* >:P prepare for the awesome.

So I just spent 53 minutes sitting in a car after I had done everything I was gonna do, thinking. Panicking even for a short while in between thoughts. I suspect my mind is trying to tell my body something that it´s simply too tired to understand. I think I might even be seeking to make myself tired because at least then I can fool myself into thinking that this apartmentlessness of mine isn´t entirely because I can´t say no to my friends. Maybe it´s just fatigue.

But no. I own up to this much at least, everything would´ve been so much easier if I´d simply have said to certain bunch of people "No, I´m just gonna rent with the first person that comes along and is READY to do it" or even "NO! I need to find an apartment, no time for social procrastination!" or just "No, let´s do it my way, it´s simpler and faster"

I have a problem, I admit. I really need to start thinking about what I should be doing for *me* maybe then I´ll find out if I have any sort of dream in that thick head of mine, I mean who knows, is it ever too late to go dreamchasing? Maybe I could even say I deserve a little me-time to actually make heads or tails out of what my life should head towards. I have a rough plan, but I reeeeaaally need to get the location thingy straight before I proceed to section b) of it much less section c) O_o

Usually ones parents are around to kick one in the butt or lend a helping hand, but I´ve noticed more and more lately, I seem to have flown my coop or whatever because when I go to my parents, it feels like visiting, it´s not like going home anymore.... I know, I know, there´s a depression, everyone is busy doing their own stuff and all in all I can hardly complain about my life in any fashion. But I would like it to start moving forward. If I can at all achieve some forward momentum in the coming month then that would be phase a) complete.

Sleep feels a bit more like a distant memory now...

Gods, I´m tired.

So I leave yet another home, this time I´m starting to run out of alternative places, place finding is gaining some headway and we´ll be making significant steps (advertising, deciding where we want it to be, looking at at least 12 apartments etc etc) in the next few weeks. Hopefully I´ll be raving about someplace fairly perfect pretty soon, who knows, there may be a party involved :Þ I might leave that up to a poll or something though

Anyway, I still have at least 2 places left to exhaust as "temporary homes" till I´m on the street per se, I´ll be the worlds richest hobo though, I think I can afford to rent on my own for half a year with my current allotment of pure cash :P I almost feel like some heroin dealer in colombia when I handle all the cash at once :P it´s weirdly awesome.

Now I remember why I did Basketball for so long ditching all the other sports, after 2 outings this week, I have aches in muscles I don´t *have* yet. Yup, I love it cuz it F%$#ING hurts like a mother :DD :DD Also, this is part of my workout plan this summer, I´m going again tomorrow, and this time, I´m gonna have SLEPT beforehand :P trying to bring your A-game running on caffeine and guarana is not very advised by yours truly, the only parts of me that don´t feel on fire are my right hand fingers, and that´s cuz I can´t feel them anymore >xÞ

Anyway, if anyone fancies a get-in-shape-a-thon this summer, ring me up, we´ll figure something out. If you look good in a bikini we´ll figure something out TWICE! *hypothetical hi5*.... nice!

yours in pain, Gísliiiiiiii

Lj-cut for scenes of explicit sexual nature
( House of Sehks! )
So anyway, we spent the entire weekend there just unwinding and having a nice getaway, I advise all couples to do this AT LEAST once this summer, you all deserve every bit of such a vacation >;P

luv ya all, Gísli

Would *YOU* want zombies on your lawn?

I´m off work for a WEEK :D:D:D nice u say? awesome I say. however, it saddens me to hear that one of the ever decreasing number of free distribution has all but fallen. ThePirateBay has finally been caught in the grim teeth of the soulless child-defiling art haters of EMI, Warner Brothers, etc etc... They have been sued for copyright infringements with the fee set to an amount that would stagger a small country. It´s sad and obvious how ridiculously one sided the court is going in this case of fraudulent abuse of the law, despite Sweden having seperate copyright laws for a year or so longer. Their founders have always stuck to these swine-sucking bastards due to swedens take on the copyright law being different than the USA/Britain one, therefore freeing them of any possible or potential legal blame in the matter. They have advertised their many victories against these tyrants over and over again and are they still viewable online at their main site.

It now seems that few things will stop them from falling which means that DL-speed worldwide on all our favorite shows will decrease dramatically. There is only one real way to fight these oppressive greedmongering whore-bastards. Do not watch their channels on payment, do not purchase their cd´s (I almost wanna cry I wanna own some of the series so badly, but in response to this blight on human rights, I say fuck them)do not sponsor or condole anything they do publicly, give them not one cent of your hard-earned moneyz.

I rarely take much of a stand on these consumerism things (xept on shoes, fuck sweatshops, fuck every single one of them) but if we allow the corps. to govern more and more of our lives and take and take without giving, then art will die. That´s right, art can die. How you wonder? What happens when they begin to license old books to the point where they are unattainable to libraries and schools due to the OBSCENE money required to buy a copy as well as the right to distribute it in school? What happens when Paintings will no longer be allowed to have pictures taken of them for ANY public display, what happens when the only way to see the Mona Lisa, will be to travel to the Louvre with ridiculous expense? Arts and crafts are under a vile threat from the copyright lawyers who just do this to fatten their allready obese asses with the cash of the poor and unpriveleged.

Also, personal opinions please: You make a thing. This thing is awesome. You show this thing to your friends, and there is much rejoice and a feeling of accomplishment, you even let some guy pay you money to distribute it in some paper or article in a paper, or a show or what have you. Bam! your friends are sued for having a "fraud" copy unpaid for in ownership of Warner due to the show being recently licensed and all content within. Heck they´d prolly sue you until they realized you MADE the damn thing. They prolly offer you a 10% cut of any profits for sueing people to quiet you down. Do you find this to be somewhat fair? Is this why you made the thing to begin with, or did you perhaps start doing something artistic to BLOODY WELL SHARE IT WITH THE WORLD TO BEGIN WITH!?!?!!

It´s taking art, and fashioning it into a weapon against the masses, it´s turning our own creations and tastes against us, it´s an opression of the creative process so severe it threatens to eventually hunt it to extinction. Be aware when you shop. If possible don´t support the products of those who try and squash free distribution, if you agree that is, of course. If you *do* agree with the copyright laws, if you believe in "I made this, it´s MINE AND ONLY MINE, FOR ALL TIME, FUCK THE REST OF YOU, PAY FOR IT OR BE ROBBED OF YOUR BELONGINGS" then by all means, follow thine own conscience.

So, arbitrary rule-makin´? Is it the devil? Is it the single most banal part of human existence, is it a personal code of conduct which changes by what building you´re in/who´s your boss/where you work etc. etc. etc.

Example extremis: A fascist regime declares that all people wearing hats must DIE swiftly and painfully. My opinion, I get it, they control the state, still no excuse for such unwarranted use of force with absolutely no logic behind it.

Example minimus: You stay at your parents place, they declare you must put your shoes upside down in a bag when entering otherwise your shoes stay outside. My opinion, I get it, they control the state, still no excuse for such unwarranted use of force with absolutely no logic behind it.

It may seem weird that I´m equally opposed to each of these "examples" but that´s just the thing, ownership goes to peoples heads! They start thinking along the ludicrous concept of *MY* stuff, and *MY* rights, as if they were autonomously made captains of their own little sailboat. I don´t care if they bought the damn sailboat, nothing gives you authority over other peoples actions/lives to any further extent then a friggin´ paycheck. Anyone thinking otherwise is in my book= a Taker. And I don´t like Takers. They are what is wrong with this world. Please try to avoid acting like one in my presence, if you´re trying to take my "Needs&Peeves" into consideration. Aside from that, do as you please :D

This has been a silly pet peeve brought to you by: Insomnia, the mother of all headaches.

...Weeeell to be honest I knew this one was coming, it was kinda allready set in motion when I last when to the dentist and she warned me I would prolly feel it within the month, at least I lasted 5 :P

See, part of the damn thing was chipped around the time I was having my other root canal, so this will most likely just be a *lather-rinse-repeat* kinda thing. Still hurts like a "#$%#$&$%#"%#!%"! and most likely will cost more than the last one as this is one of my... errr... moar bitey teeth? Incisors? whatever, dental learning: I haz it not!

So, swine flu.... Scary stuff :P

*Edit* On a related note, could Rabies (or any Lyssavirus) lead to "zombies" at some point? I mean, high concentration of it in the salival glands, causes unnatural feral aggression, often exhibited in biting, proves fatal if untreated? I´m just saying, if you didn´t know it was rabies and someone came running at you in a fit of hysteria and aggresion and BIT you, wouldn´t you think zombie holocaust was here?

it´s true, I have misplaced DAS HAIR, for the next 6 months or so, it´s aaaaaaall smooth :P I kinda got bored and had an appointment with my hairmastah at the same time, some alchohol may have been involved, then I went home to sleep, following morning, Tinna woke up being all: OHMIGODD it´s like Kiwi! >:3

... Suffice to say she was of course punished with due diligence, but more importantly I realized I am going for some kind of Matt McConaughey in Reign of Fire type of thing... or Edward Norton in American History X >xP it´s madness I tellz ya

I´m a sex-a-holic I think, I fantasize WAY too much nowadays, I´d practically screw my chair, don´t give me a chair for my next birthday, I have almost no pr0n anymore and that´s not helping, having sexy female friends is not helping, being at a house with *netnanny* isn´t helping, talking about sex isn´t helping, working out isn´t helping, having sex only helps for about an hour or two, I´m thinking next step: tranquilizers.




.....also it´s april fools today. xD